It
brings a heavy heart to mind, however, to use this new found grace when the
path becomes dark and cold once again.
Somehow the pain and affliction build upon each other at the same moment
and any hope for a life of light seems distant and almost obsolete. Everywhere you turn negative energy and karma
are directing spears of ice at your innermost being (the spirit of your
beautiful beating heart) chiseling away at the surface, while slowing eroding your
protective barrier.
How can
those who you have loved most suddenly turn into harsh, bitter souls with
vengeance as the only path left in their core?
Where they wronged so profoundly that they cannot see beyond hope? Or
perhaps the present reality and the option of admitting fault is a burden just
too large to carry? Is loving another so
cumbersome that choosing an anxiety laden life and regression to infantile
actions more appealing? Love cannot be
turned on and off like a switch. It
evolved through positive actions and words forming a foundation to share
throughout time. If it truly ever existed
it cannot be abandoned nor forgotten.
Falling
on Grace is the only solution that deems
worthy in any circumstance, especially paths of cruel and unusual punishment. The role of the servant and practicing
submission is an arduous role, but one that proves rewarding at the end (I keep
telling myself). As we reflect on the
past and the myriad of poor choices made is it possible to consider present day
challenges as continued punishment? Absolutely not! This is when you come back to Grace and understand
in our hearts that if we are truly remorseful we can justly walk on paths of
peace. The speed bumps along the way are
merely reminders that all energy is being attracted and repelled at the same
time and it is our choice to choose love, gratitude and humility vs. vengeance,
deceit and pain.
A life
without love is not the intention of this earthly world. With this in mind, do we actively seek this
love out or allow it to gently fill our lives in divine timing? How long do we live without this innate
quality, this love? To watch selfishness
vs. selflessness is heartbreaking and often a lonely road for many. Where do we find strength to walk our walk of
Grace each day when those that mean the most are on a self destructing
path? We can walk with open hearts
through prayer.
Solace can
come through formal prayers, breath prayers, and in the comfort of nature. Let the soothing sound of the leaves gently falling
bring peace as they drift through the branches onto the crisp, frosty grass
only to be met by the glistening sun. Allow
the bursts of color warm your heart and bring a sense of comfort as thoughts of
this new path of darkness attempt to taint your soul. What lies ahead is unforetold, but the power
of Grace will take you past the pain and into a sea of light.
